Bless This DC Sunshine

Well, just when I thought I was getting totally fed up with this city, it gave us a beautiful spring day like today and made me fall in love all over again. Jonathan and I have had quite the week. A doozie, one might even say. Between me being super emotional AND in the worst mood in history (really - it hasn't been pretty), Jonathan's second draft of his massive note for contracts journal due this Sunday, not being able to sleep much, accidental glass breaking at 11 oclock at night... only to realize that there's a massive champagne cork stuck in your vacuum when you're trying to clean up the mess (we literally haven't had champagne in I don't know how long - it's a mystery), to just having one of those weeks where nothing seems to go your way. Let's just say we haven't had a lot of shining moments around here lately.

Then, today. Today it was 68 degrees outside and sunny, and absolutely beautiful here in our dear Capitol Hill. I can't even say how much we needed it. I should probably fill in the blanks a little and go ahead and say that I've really been missing my Dad this week. I think anyone who's lost a loved one understands both the constant struggle, and yet also the fact that over time there is still a sort of seesaw effect that can really get to you. Sometimes you cope with it really well (truly!) and you can focus on remembering the good etc., but then randomly (and without warning), you seesaw back into the old suffocating pain. Usually it doesn't last horribly long, but for some reason this week, I just couldn't shake it.

When I get like this, I try to do all of the things I should do to help me snap out of it...(not). Of course, my "symptoms" include blowing off things I know would make me feel better like: spending time with friends (Tammy, if you're reading this, I'm busted for bailing on Monday - but seriously, super happy to spend some girl time with you tomorrow!), going to the new women's group I've joined, exercising, getting out of the house during the work day, all of it. Yep, this week I dumbly allowed my emotions get the best of me, and it's like today was my own personal little gift. Today, Jonathan put a bug in my ear to get out of the house early, get some sunshine and do my work from the coffee shop. Bless that husband of mine. We might fight sometimes (like I could deny that), but he loves me better than anyone ever could.

Apologies for such a heavy post on a Thursday night. I usually feel too uncomfortable writing this sort of thing, but I do really think it's important to be authentic, too. So... authentically, I still get enormously sad sometimes, but the Lord and loved ones help bring me through to the sunny days again. Thanks to them and to dc (at least today!) for reminding me again, of some of the things we really love about life and this city, that I would definitely miss if we ever left.

x's & o's & cherry blossoms *(photo from last year)*